I recently attended a workshop with Lisa Gawlas, founder of “Nation of Lights”. Lisa is my teacher, she is one of my wonderful teachers, and it is the work I have been doing with her that has helped to unlock what she lovingly refers to as my super powers. In a reading that Lisa gave me during the “Into the Void” workshop, she was shown a whole bunch of electrodes on my head like mini conversations all over, these conversations were unconscious to me.
This picture is the best image I could find on line and it may not be how she saw it, but it is what I see.
She was also shown that these electrodes or conversations were connected by a large band from my head to my calf muscle on the left side (physical) and to my age of about 2-4 years old and there was also a pointy finger that was pointing at me in my face… like an implied telling off! Somehow this was all connected to better understanding my psychic vision or partially and temporarily veiled vision.
In sessions with Lisa prior, we had learned that she could see I had a large 3rd eye but there was a bit of gauze over it, like medical gauze – like it was veiled but in the work we would be doing at the workshop, a greater understanding of why this was there would become known to me.
After this reading at the workshop, I went into meditation and asked my team what are these conversations and what is the pointy finger about. Now it was also through working with Lisa that I learned how to discern when spirit is gifting me with information through pictures and when I was doing it my self, or rather the Mind. That was easy, I would not pick what spirit gives me, I would not be able to put that imagery together. So I went into meditation and asked the question and was immediately given a picture of myself when I was about 3, I could see my hair, how little I was and the checkered yellow and white dress I was wearing. The movie screen I was shown was of a parent pointing their finger at me and saying quite sternly (they were looking down at me)
NO NO NO YOU CAN’T SEE your……. Stop lying... stop telling tales...
and I saw that I took my invisible friend/Higher Self/Guardian Angel/Guide..whatever it was that was with me when I was little, and hid her behind my back. What is interesting about this was I did not SEE the colored yellow and white dress, but I KNEW it was a yellow and white check dress. I could see and I knew.
This new found awareness somehow was able to burn that past connection away. I was given confirmation by a picture of a blade of grass burning slowly which dissolved the connection from those old conversations of past, to a new understanding.
Awareness transforms everything.
The whole thing is like a movie clip, one packet of information and it flashes in an instant. Contained within is a whole bunch of information that was proven to be most helpful. After discovering I could clearly Know, See and Feel energies, the class students were open to letting me practice readings on them the next day.
At 9:00 am on Saturday, my first practice client laid down and I had no clue what was about to unfold. I practiced connecting to their energy through the feet and through the hands.
My First Readings using my Clear Knowing, Seeing and Feeling
This was a bit bumpy at first as I am just beginning to learn this new language of spirit who uses metaphors, pictures and symbolism to communicate with me.
With one of my ladies, I saw a picture of a bouncy drum, like a big buoyant bouncy drum and I understood that it appeared like things just bounced off of her emotionally, but I also saw spears making there way through the bouncy part and sticking into her. I was given a feeling and this was new because I said out loud, okay this is disgusting, It feels like something just got shoved into my mouth, like I was being gagged. (I know what that something was and I would not pick that imagery, but I understood clearly what it meant- feeling gagged!)
These images were given when I was physically reading her energy through the feet, but I was also given a picture, or a scene of her when she walked by me the next day. This is where I really came to understand how truly amazing the language of knowing is and how it is so much more effective than words. There is so much more information in these pictures. As this beautiful lady walked by me, I was given an image a massive water balloon. It was about the size of a large Santa sack and she was dragging it behind her. I knew it was red in colour which is the colour of the Root chakra, and it is also the base, the root of the issue.
I followed her into the kitchen and said “I just got a picture of you dragging this massive water baloon behind you. She replied I know I am dragging around all of my emotions. Ahhhh of course! What was super cool about this picture and this lady was that she also had swelling or inflamation in her legs, so this had also manifested in her physical body.
Water is emotion – see what I mean I would not think to put that picture together. As I looked at her with all the love I could muster, all the compassion I felt and when her tears finally came, I felt a huge release and could now only see an empty balloon as the the water was gone and the image I was given was a cape, like a super hero cape.
On Sunday, I practiced again and this time I was reading the head. Yesterday was the feet. In this situation I remember stating “I don’t know what I am doing” as my lady looked up and me from the massage table smiling and so willing to let me practice.
So doing my best to tune into her energy, I said out loud, Ok, I am gonna connect to your power center, and then I Litteraly FELT like I was going to Puke, I gagged and said out loud, it feels like I have shit shoved down my mouth.
All I remember is Lisa standing up and saying something like “okay I have to get involved, Don is here ….. I don’t remember anything else, but I do know that from the other side of the veil, a Dad who had died 10 years ago , had stepped forward to share a very important message to both Lisa and his daughter.
Here is the piece that Lisa shared in her blog which accurately describes her experience with this.
Now, I am going to completely change the subject because I have something hanging in the forefront of my mind that needs sharing and a longer view of understanding too.
One of the amazing ladies participating in the Into the Void Workshop discovered her ability to read the body and energy field. My precious daughter came in one day and became a volunteer to help my lady expand beyond us and really validate her amazing... FREAKIN AMAZING skills!!
I was sitting on the couch watching as my daughter layed on the massage table and my precious lady snaked her energy down thru my daughters crown into her body and hit a nauseating energy instantly. I knew what that was!! Her relationship with her father (who passed about 10 years ago.)
That poking into that tightly held in energy brought her father to the table side instantly, which really shocked me. I have had zero connection with him even while living with my daughter until my lady opened the portal for this connection.
It would be an understatement to say that my oldest daughter left my house at 9 years old and entered her own hell as she took up permanent residence under her father (I gave up my parental rights at that time... long story, doesn't matter for this sharing.) As he stood next to his daughter the remorse I could feel flowing from his entire Being truly shocked me, my own tears almost started flowing. However, it is what he said, really took the cake of shock to a whole fully level of understanding. He was sure to change my words into his direct quote to her "I am so sorry for the life I took from you."
She had only lived with him for about a year before he put her in jail, juvenile detention and then psych hospitals associated with that institution and refused to allow her and I to see each other or talk with each other again.
This really hit home for me because again, going to one of my biggest pet peeves in people saying "everything is happening as it is supposed to be" or "I am exactly where I am supposed to be." Bullshit!! Don showed me with every ounce of his energy system that we stray so far from the path we planned out that the remorse of harm carries thru onto the other side of the veil.
For the first time ever, I listened to my daughter talk about her father yesterday when we rented a moving van to shift her from my house to her house, with genuine love in her field. There truly is a new shiny part of my daughter that was birthed the day Paula streamed her energy into my daughter and release the nausea into love.
I will stop here as I had a number of other really cool practice sessions while I was in Fentress with my wonderful other class mates, who we lovingly now call the Witches of Fentress. I am now practicing and learning this glorious new language of the Spirit.
I am in wonder and in awe. I am humbled by these experiences and delighted that my reality just got much much bigger.
Be IN PEACE!!